I am in a weird place. I put myself there. I ve been there a while back, and I thought I would never step foot back here. It’s a lot worse than I remembered. It’s empty, I am just trying to find something to poke me. No drive, nothing, I am just here. I have nothing really to hold on, or to pull. Like I think I know what’s going on, but I am just filling the room i am in with more water to drown in. I should stop fooling myself, i should stop everything.
Well fuck, if i didnt go to the hospital i could have been dead. I am just laying there with my meds doing nothing. i am doing something wrong